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25 June 2012 @ 03:12 pm
Well, it has certainly been a long time since I've posted anything here!

Instead of going through an almost two year run down of events, I will just say; Happy anniversary to my amazing husband!! We have been through a lot in the past two years, but I wouldn't change any of it. It has definately brought us closer as a couple, and I realize now that I did, indeed, marry my best friend (as cliche as it sounds.)
Feeling: lovedloved
16 September 2010 @ 08:47 am
Starting Weight - 171.8

This Week - 169.8

10% Goal - 154.6

Ultimate Goal - 106


Arms - 13.5in
Hips - 44in
Bust - 39in
Waist - 34.5
Thighs - 27in

Getting back on plan with Weight Watchers isn't necessarily the easiest thing in the world to do, but apparently, it works. I'll take a 2 lb weight loss in one week; it's good enough for me!

This week wasn't easy, and the next few weeks probably won't be easy either (60 days to build a routine) but it does get a little bit easier every day. The hardest part is motivating myself to hit the gym. I wake up wanting to go, get there, and then sit in the parking lot looking inside. I can't wait for Russell's schedule to change so I can have a workout buddy. I've always found it much easier when I have someone to compete with. My Ipod can only motivate me so much, and I think a random stranger at the gym would find it strange if I kept glancing at their calorie burn on the treadmill.

Another week begins, and I WILL lose weight again.
Feeling: accomplishedaccomplished
01 September 2010 @ 08:33 am

I have absolutely no idea when the last time I posted here was. Sure, I could look at my page and find out, but that would simply be too much work for me.

Drinking coffee in the morning is good for the body and soul. I've decided it. Unfortunately, I brewed about 6 cups only to find out that I'm completely out of milk. Well, there's always tomorrow. Maybe my darling husband will be nice enough to pick up some on his way home from work.

Speaking of that, yes, it's official. I married the love of my life on June 26th. A full moon, of course. Would anyone expect anything different from me? Apart from some in-law drama at the reception, everything went beautifully!

I wouldn't have it any other way. "As long as love shall last" shall be a very, very long time. I hope he's accepted that fact!

Honeymoon = Mexico! All inclusive? That's how we roll. But of course, those things will spoil you. And I miss our Victor!

I recently (last night, as a surpise to my husband) returned home from Newport, RI. Mom and I took a week long trip out to my favorite place in the world to spread Gramma's ashes. RIP Dot.

Now, it's back to the real world. Gym time, several upcoming photoshoots... Time fies when you're busy!
Feeling: bouncybouncy
January is almost over. There is only one week left after this. The end of January means the beginning of February. February means six months with the one I love. How could it have gone so quickly? It seems like only yesterday we were meeting for coffee.

My ARIA exams are speeding up on me. How will I do? Everyone keeps telling me that I will pass, that they'll be easy for me. I'm doubtful.

I've applied to Raymond Walters for a Business Management degree. I think it will compliment my Equine Studies degree, especially if I'm going to run a farm of my own anytime in my life. Hopefully I'll be able to start in the spring. I think I'm losing my mind. I'm going to be way overloading myself. For some reason, it seems like a good idea. I get bored sitting around the house all day.

Time will go by even faster when I start. Such is the way of things when keeping busy.
Feeling: energeticenergetic
Listening to: The Gun Song -- Ayria
28 December 2008 @ 02:17 pm
Thank the gods. Peak season is done, and I can finally spend more time on the things I need to do like going to the gym every day, as well as to the barn. January is almost here, a new year means new goals (and some of the same.) I know I'll forget if I don't post them somewhere now, so here are my "resolutions" for the upcoming year.

1. Get the rest of my weight off (I'd like to be 115 at least) and get into better shape
2. Pass all of my classes (Shouldn't be a problem, got a B on my conformation course!)
3. Get Shaman into riding shape (we're working on it.)

Those are the biggest and most important. Everything else is an afterthought.

Things are going well, despite the fact that the holidays were kinda hard (for both me and Mom.) I'm looking forward to the new year, which brings with it the coming of five months spent with Russell. Hard to believe. Perhaps. It seems like it's been a lot longer, but I suppose that's what happens when shit hits the fan. I'm supposed to be spending the night with him tonight, but I don't know if I will or not. We spend a lot of time together (not that I'm complaining.) I'd hate for him to get tired of me so quickly. I really like this one.
09 December 2008 @ 10:41 am
1. Stretching a piercing is a lot like butt secks. Use lots of lube, and take it slowly. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. This time, I was lucky enough to win. Yay for having my belly button piercing back!

2. I miss my friends terribly. Almost everyone I'm close to is away at school at the moment, and I can't wait for them to come back. I don't have nearly enough time with my girls, and that blows.

3. The holidays are going to be ultra difficult this year. Mom isn't dealing with Dad's death as well as I thought she was, and I'm concerned about her. I hate that I have to work all night, and she's at work all day, and I never get to spend any real time with her. I want to switch to day sort, but there are no openings. Fail.

4. Four months. Not a long time. It seems like it's been a lot longer. Things would be totally different without you in my life. I know I wouldn't be dealing as well with all of this. I love you.
Feeling: awakeawake
Listening to: Dreams -- Requiem for a Dream Soundtrack
16 November 2008 @ 04:17 pm
The weekends just don't last long enough. It would seem that Sunday is quickly going to become my least favorite day of the week. Tonight will be the first night in a long time without my love here to keep me warm. Tomorrow, I must return to work and enter into a week without spending time with him. Wednesday night for Ghost Hunters, and the weekends are now the only time I'm allowing myself to see him. Peak season is fast approaching. With it will come bigger paychecks, but also less free time and less time to spend with my love, friends, etc. It's frustrating to me, and my least favorite time of the year. For the next month and a half, UPS owns me. Most upsetting. On the other hand, there is always the hope that the seperation will make him more excited to see me when he does.

I need to find ways to keep myself busy when I do manage to have free time. It will keep me from thinking about things so much. I shall start tonight by cleaning the woman cave.

Goals for the week:
1. Workout every day (no more slacking off!)
2. Finish conformation assignment
3. Start behavior modification assignment
4. Fill out bio form for ARIA exams
5. Knock some sense into my boo's head

That's all for now, I believe. Hopefully I can be a busy girl this week, but I'm sure the plan will fail.
Feeling: aggravatedaggravated
Listening to: Wicked Game -- HIM
10 November 2008 @ 11:39 am
I wish you wouldn't say such silly things sometimes. It always catches me off guard, makes me happy for a moment. But you and I both know that you don't mean it, not at this time. It's not possible. I don't really feel like getting my hopes up like that, to have them crash down the road.

Goals for the week:
1. Workout every day
2. Finish conformation assignment
23 October 2008 @ 01:20 pm
I honestly don't understand why my life has to parallel the novels I read.

Stupid Twilight series.

Stupid boys and their feelings.

This is me. A note to self: keep a closer hold on your heart. You put those walls up for a reason. Silly girl. Look at the mess you've created for yourself!
Feeling: annoyedannoyed
08 October 2008 @ 12:02 pm

Full Moon is in less than a week, and I'm starting to get sucked in to all of the energy that is floating around. A lot of things have been screwing with my energy patterns lately, and this weekend will be a nice escape from it all. Not only do I have Friday off (and get paid for it), but Russell and I are going camping Friday - Saturday. At the moment, it seems to be exactly what I need. A short getaway from family issues that I really don't want to deal with, and other things. Hopefully it'll be what I need. I've not been sleeping well lately, and have developed some terrible bags under my eyes.

Honestly, with all of the shit that has been going down since we got together, I'm surprised he's still around. Let's face it, the family situation is an absolute mess, not to mention the mental struggle with Ryan. I've been somewhat needy lately, and I feel bad about it. I'm not usually like this, there is just way too much going on. My stress levels are through the roof.

The hospital is transferring Dad to a nursing home today. They're saying he'll be there for at least 2-3 weeks. He can't take care of himself at all right now. The part that pisses me off the most is that he's currently refusing to go to a rehab facility. I'm sick of him acting like he's the only one that matters. He doesn't know, or doesn't care what he's doing to the family. I'm going to go with the "doesn't care" option. It makes the most sense. Before everything happened, I told him that if he loved me, he would go to the doctor. He didn't go.

What does that say to me?

Mom said if he comes home and starts drinking again, that she's filing for divorce. It's not necessarily something that I want to happen, but I think it would be the right thing to do. This is something that has been going on for years, and it's not gotten any better. Only worse.

Currently, I'm trying not to think about how much I want to punch Dad in the face. Instead, I'm looking forward to a weekend escape with my love. Fleeing the state of Ohio and leaving the issues at home. Taking a trip through the caves. Watching the bats fly around when the sun goes down. Sitting by the campfire making 'mallows and just being silly together. It's what we do best.
Feeling: anxiousanxious
Listening to: Pink Dress -- Ayria